What’s more is it seems so counter cultural for me. While I have always had the unconditional love and support of my parents and husband; the same cannot be said in areas of my life. Example: My Tia turned to me saying, after I had just graduated from university, the only reason I accomplished this was because my sister had done the work for me. We had chosen opposite degree paths, but that didn’t seem to make a difference. My sister received her B.S. and I received a B.A. (the lesser accomplishment). It still bothers on occasion, but I can’t let it bring me down and I won’t let it ruin my relationship with my Tia. I realize most people spend their lives fighting and beating the odds stacked up against them. My life is not unique in adversity, but I can fight for an extraordinary life uniquely my own.
I think it is time to make more changes in my way of thinking. I can’t allow myself to succumb to defeat every time I get a negative pregnancy test. I believe more than ever that if I truly TRUST in God and surrender to His will; then a life filled with HOPE and LOVE can finally begin.